Tired. Run down. Achy. Weary.
That’s me today.
And most days.
Do you suffer from a Chronic illness? How do you stay positive?
I try to remember how good I’ve got it. How I’ve been incredibly blessed. How so many others have it much, much worse. It works for a while.
Then I’m back to being sick…and tired…..and sick and tired. With no end in sight.
Maybe if I didn’t look in the mirror and immediately see the 20 lbs I’ve gained from this.
Maybe if I didn’t look around the house and see the many, many things that need to be cleaned.
Maybe if I didn’t look at my calendar and see so many things “to do” with no energy to do it.
I have good days with my Chronic Fatigue Syndrome….days when I really almost believe that maybe…just maybe….it’s gone!
I have days when I get things done…when I feel like I’m myself again.
But those days don’t last, and don’t come very often.
I have been coming to terms with the idea that I can not do what I used to. My self-definition has changed…and changed again. I’m not a bad person. But those thoughts are constantly changing and evolving. The doctors tell me I’ll most likely have this forever. So how do I stay positive?
I’m learning. I’m trying. I fail sometimes…but try again. I go through moments of self-loathing, then self-love. But I want to get positive and STAY that way! I’m doing my best to be smart about this, to turn to the Lord, to prioritize the “to-dos” and learn to let things go.
What should my strategy be? What works for you? I can’t be alone in trying to learn positive thinking and affirmations. This is one area that I’m still trying to learn what works for me. What works for you?