That’s what I need to do. I’ve really done it this time…taken on WAY too much. I’m in over my head.
I am ecstatic to be having my parents, and hubby’s parents, as well as my SIL and niece in town this weekend for my daughter’s baptism. I’ve been looking forward to it for a long, long time. I’ve been trying to get some deep cleaning done in the house (which is kind of redundant with kids running around un-cleaning as quick as I finish), and getting menus prepared for their visit. I’ve actually been enjoying that part of my craziness. However, on top of that I’ve been working like mad on the decorations for the Stake Relief Society activity next weekend (May 3) and so far have had 5 other women offer to help. Even with their help, things seem to coming along too slowly. I’ve got 16 centerpeices to finish, big tissue pom poms to finish, an art display to pull together, favors to make for each sister (130) etc. etc. etc. I’m NOT doing it all on my own – I’ve actually been delegating quite a bit, but it just seems that there isn’t enough help to be found. It’s becoming a big source of stress this week. And, I haven’t intentionally been leaving things to the last minute, I only had less than 2 weeks notice to pull this together. I was also writing talks for the last 2 weeks which I spoke each week.
I am also still in charge of the ward bulletin, which I thought was supposed to be a 2 week thing, but has turned into 2 months and still going. I’m trying to pull together the bulletin for this Sunday, as well as finish up a program for TJ’s baptism, AND practise playing piano for a song I’m being the pianist for AT the Stake Relief Society meeting next week, which I agreed to 3 weeks ago, BEFORE I knew I’d be asked to head up the decorating.
The last two days I’ve also been contacted about photographing 2 weddings, a maternity and newborn shoot, and a family photo shoot. All to take place in the next 6 weeks or so. While this is exactly what I want, it seems like my well is drying up faster than I can fill it! I am not like those superwomen who thrive on having full plates, who do really well under pressure. I feel like I’ve got to set some limits, but I find it SO impossible to say no. I feel like I’m letting people down if I say no, and I’ve always been taught not to be idle, to always make sure I’m pulling my weight. Am I the only one who feels that way sometimes? I seriously doubt it.
How do you set limits for yourself? I feel like I might crash and burn soon. I am going to drop the ball somewhere, and if not – I’m simply going to pass out. I think after May 3rd much of the stress will have passed, but how do I survive until then? I really want this activity to pull together nicely. I want the sisters to feel pampered, to be amazed by the decorations. Anyone who knows me well knows that if I take on a project, I’m never satisfied unless I give 100% and have it come off just as I planned. I just think I’m losing it a little. I’ve still got my calling to think about (Enrichment leader) and SOMEWHERE in there I’ve got to be a mother and a wife. If I’m lucky, I’ll find time to make breakfast, lunch, and dinner, read to my kids, play with them, pamper my husband, say prayers, read scriptures, write in my journal (i.e. my blog – LOL!) and maybe even relax a bit. HA!
Okay, I think I’m done venting. I think I can do this. I just need 2 extra hands and another 12 hours in a day.